So, this is what called 'memories' pt. 1

..Sometimes, i have a certain picture playing behind my head. Though subtle, but faded it is not. I still remember back in the days where i wander aimlessly in winter nights bracing the cold and chilly raindrops tinkering on my face. It was so quiet back then. And i was too, quietly hurting...

..certain time back then, i lived my life like a hermit. I remembered whisky and weed being my only friend. And i worked without an aim, only goal is to get drunk so i can sleep away the pain, and getting high during the days so i can 'float' amid my ever-lasting pain...

..i was hurt. for being taken away what i pride myself for. I spiralled straight down n landed flat on my face. The night it seems, are only there to engulf me with its generous silent darkness, as i pretended to be well and strong to my parents. but like a waddling duck on a pond, grace it seems, is not beckoned by what is struggling underneath. I was drunk, ousted myself from outside, and musics from my pc is what i want to hear. to accompany me through night after night of drunken sorrow. The day it seems, doesnt shine for me either. I was just merely working to anticipate the night. another night of solemness..

..slowly and painfully, i began to regain my stand. but not without help from certain friends. Three persons to be exact. One, is where i had known since my days of college greens. Two, is where i had known through one. And three, in which i had also known through one. Though it is rare nowadays, that we exchange hello, you guys are part of what i owe to you what i am today.

..and sometimes, a certain birdy will fly by into my lonely space. A certain someone, so far away from where i wander through those times. and to finally meet upon my return to homeland. but all is only clear after the times have moved the clouds, allowing the sun to shine in my life again..

From memories to present, i began to see what is trying to make sense. We, came from a long way to where we are today. and i secretly vowed, that I will, bring you to the place where it all began..

"it is a place of beauty, it was only me, who failed to see the beauty in things back then"

All in a day;'s work

Monday mornin', I wuz sittin on my desk, then here she comes. Motherfucker's gonna 'Drop The Pressure (1)', i said to meself. Gonna be shitload of work hey, so i whoop mah 'innernet' browser n 'I See Girls (2)'. Fuck hey, that's all i need to divert my attention from them motherfuckers. Kinda showing em' like, u know, 'Feel My Vibe (3)' dammit! Anyhoo, this here isnt a 'Perfect World (4)', now i aint complainin juz cuz not everybody can see the 'Beauty In Me (5)'..

Ah shit, go no further, the motherfucker is here already. gonna lay me piles of jobs like 'Four To The Floor (6)'. Gotta keep calm gotta keep calm.. think not of the job! think not of the job! think,..'Nasty Girls (7)'. Yea, that shud keep my mind off a lil'. And don't forget 'Sex & Sun (8)' too! righttttt.. some fantasy wont hurt. But shitty thing is that, too much fantasy leads me to some fuckin' 'Flashback (9)' i vanna forget. 'Girls Can Be Cruel (10)' huh..groan! let's not go to that topic mmmkay?

Half past noon, i have got a fuckin' tune stuck in mah head, its 'Lola's Theme (11)' from goddamn FatBoySlim.. damn i hate that song, but it's stuck in my head! Wait wait.. i can feel its going gone.. yess, yeSSS, going going,,. GONE!

huh? what's that? shit, 'Woz Not Woz (12)' u sneaky bastard, when did u snuck up on me?

so there, im stuck with another song in my head..and its only half past noon, another 5 hours to go before i hit the road!

5pm! Time to hit the road! Imma gonna put some 'Housetrack (13)' music in ma car as i make my way to Tiff's place. sweet! not forgetting to wind down the car window to share some of me music, like u know,. so people can like, 'Identify Me (14)' me. No don't get me wrong, imma no 'Rocker (15)' and never will be. Imma just smoothhh, like u know, the original cool. The real-deal, like u know, the original 'Coke', not some 'diet coke', or 'coke extreme', or some other fucktard versions. By the time i've been identified , people is gonna yell 'Don't Stop (16)'. LOL.

01 - Mylo - Drop The Pressure

02 - B Studio - I See Girls (Crazy) (Tom Neville Remix)

03 - Axwell - Feel The Vibe

04 - City Slickers - Perfect World (Steve Mac Remix)

05 - Stisch Ft. Magnus Carlson - Beauty In Me (Barfly Remix)

06 - Starsailor - Four To The Floor (Thin White Duke Mix)

07 - Inaya Day - Nasty Girls (Full Vocal Mix)

08 - Aloud - Sex & Sun Part Iii (Club Mix)

09 - Max Linen - Flashback

10 - Infusion - Girls Can Be Cruel

11 - The Shapeshifters - Lola's Theme (Eric Prydz Remix)

12 - Eric Prydz & Steve Angello - Woz Not Woz

13 - Alex Neri - Housetrack

14 - Mark Dynamix & Jaytech - Identify Me (Original Pro-Tech Mix)

15 - Alter Ego - Rocker

16 - Timo Di Roy - Don't Stop (Babylon Robots Remix)

shells shed over time's passing

Stars in the night is all i see,

and the gloomy moon is beaming out for me,

shining in the starlight of my eye,

as I fly away I'm whispering bye-bye,

I'm just another kind of guy,

and I'm leaving for another kind of world,

shiny sky above inviting me,

don't be sorry cause'

tomorrow never dies

Floating on a flyaway tonight,

and I'm sweeping through the skies in speedy fly,

leaving all the dreariness behind,

to another space another time

Amended from "Tomorrow Never Dies", by Swan Lee

"time to time i promise myself i will change for being a different person, but deterrence of irony is not an easy task. At least when i paused and looked past the footsteps i left behind, things do worked out in an unexpected twist, which is still good. At least I had hoped for being a better person now, not a different one"

M for Malaysian Morons

mmmmkay, so the price of petrol has gone up by 78 cents. though it's quite a big deal i must say, but still there's another bigger deal reflected by this phenomena. The deal where some Malaysians can be such morons at times (well, most of the times i must say).

Here's the case-study. It's a whole-ly eclectic study done empirically based on my observation while sipping my teh tarik in nearby mamak. Fortunately a petrol station is located just opposite to contribute to my study.

Study Case : "Prove That Malaysians Can Be Morons"

Case: It was one fine rainy night, so MaddMadd decided to drive out to favorite mamak stall to have some tea with his buddies. But MaddMadd never reach on time. He was late for 45 minutes, when normally he can reach in just 7 minutes. All because people are stupidly queuing up for 'last-cheap' petrol. OOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ BiG Fuckin' Deal! So MaddMadd decided to sit at the mamak and observed the stupidity of some people. And at the same time, laughed his ass off! Ere's what from what i observed:

Agenda One

A bunch of disgruntled factory workers sittin' helplessly in the bus with the word "p*k*m*k" at the tip of their tongue, just because the bus driver decided to pump some petrol and got caught in the jam. A small group eventually decided to get off the bus and walk home. And yes, the word "p*k*m*k" is still at the tip of their tongue. LOL!

Agenda Two

A smashed-rear end Hyndai uncle came down the car looking puzzled and helpless. He cannot accept what just happened. He only wanted to save some RM and ended up having to spend more!

"wah wah, hamitaichi? hamitaichi? nin peh ai pah you nia. Ho lang lorng chia. Suey ar suey arrr!"

**Uncle, why la you so kiamsiap. See what happened now. Your car kana orgy-kissed! LOL!

Agenda Three

One aunty decided to be the traffic police for "one-night-special" only. Cuz her car got block by another lady. Normal la, hassle happening.

Aunty : oi oi, jalan la! apara! keleta kana block la! tarak otak kar?!

Lady : ni lu punya jalan ka?!

To make matters worst, a very, and i do mean a VERY disgruntled uncle walked towards the good-samaritan aunty and scolded her. That apek just wanna scold people, he does'nt know what was happening. LOL!

Agenda Four

One pakcik kana horned kaokao because he was smart to turn off his engine while waiting for his turn in the queue. Only thing is that his car is too old to rev up again in time to move on the queue.

**Okay okay, maybe a little bit lame, dont deserve the "LOL!", but still the pakcik so kancheong when tryin' to start his engine.

"ya Allah! Hidop! Hidop le keta burok!! Hampehhhh!!!"

**No, he did'nt say that, I added 'drama' to it. haha!

Agenda Five

One particular uncle was spotted walking and standing around the area with his kid for some time. They did nothing! Just standing and walking around. So me friend asked me what were they tryin to do.

Madd : mehbe the father is trying to teach the son the value of money. And at the same time saying no to toys and videogames. What beautiful timing! Smart.... very smart.....

Agenda Six

MaddMadd got lost in own hometown because all the main road to mamak is jammed, so have to follow manymany-littlelittle-secretsecret-windywindy roads to reach. -_-

So there, six short stories, all intertwined for one single reason, spun to various other things. Heck, I can even direct a movie out of this! The title will be:

"SIXTH FOUR : THE MALAYSIAN MORON TRAGEDY"

aka

"EMPAT JUN : TRAJEDI MALAYSIA TERBODOH"

aka

"SEE HO LAK GUEK : MALAYSIA TEH-TUAR-KOR-TAI EH TAI CHI"

aka

"SEI HOU LOK YUET : KAM YAT MALOYSAIA YAN MOU YONG NOU"

aka

"SZE HOU LIU YUE : QILAI! QILAI! BU YAO HAI JIANG PEHN LE!"

Sharon Stone

"bimbo-skank"

(rub your mouse pointer on me!)

"I'm not happy about the way the Chinese are treating the Tibetans because I don't think anyone should be unkind to anyone else," Stone said last Thursday during a Cannes Film Festival red-carpet interview with Hong Kong's Cable Entertainment News. "And the this earthquake and ak this stuff happened, and then i thought, is that karma? When you're not nice that the bad things happen to you?"

taken from Star Newspaper, 29th May, 2008 on a fine morning

"Seriously bitch, if you can't think of anything smart to say, just shut the fuck up"

A remark made by Ms. Stone allegedly had me thinking how shallow can this bimbo be. It startled me, to find out that someone this shallow can be of so 'successful' in life. Typically reflects the white-trash mindset, Ms. Stone musta have been watching too much 'Hi, My Name Is Earl' sitcoms. It's rather disturbing to know that such ignorance is embedded in today's so-called 'successful' people. Perhaps looking at another point of view, it's considered 'normal' as the Americans are always the protaganist in the stead where the world are expected to empathy with you and put up with all the shit you give. America thinks everything revolves around them and them only, the rest are minors.

So bitch, if you wanna talk about Karma, I guess you had better finish watching that mindless sitcom first as I now had doubts if you'll ever understand the underlying meanings of Karma. You're just another bimbo, so I seriously do not think you have the mental capacity to understand Karma.

On a side note, why am I so agitated in issues regarding the Tibet-China resolution? Well my papa says, (just kidding!! but thats how white-trashes like to say before making a point, am i right? LoL!!) . Okay, if i can be serious for a moment..

Tibet has always been a part of China and always will be despite any interventions from the US for separation as a independant entity. What is more shocking and upsetting is to have the Dalai Lama talking cock in backing up with the US against China. No offense Mr. Lama, we are both buddhists, but i think you should just get the fuck out of this religion if you wanna use it as an alibi in your regime and white-trash propagandas.

Phew, there.. this issue has been bugging me since morning,.gotta get it out ya. And so sowee for some of me blog fans for such an angwy (angry) return =)

**p/s : Sharon Stone, I hope next time you dont get confused between Karma and Karma Sutra. Karma cannot be understood by you, and Karma Sutra can be achieved by you cuz' ur a cheap whore. As easy as that.

Tiffany

mokuji! short summary"

"tiffany (no, not my girl) was a rival of Spawn. Firstly introduced as one of the evillings of the Spawn comic, Tiffany was.. i dont know, i just bought her cuz she's so goddamn hot"

and oh yeah, i grabbed her during my shopping binge in Perth. if im not mistaken it was one the same day i got my Gucci wallet..together with my skinnies, a few t-shirts, two bottles of perfume, yada yada..

Zera

mokuji! short intro:

"Zera is a warrior goddess descended from the heavens to battle Spawn in the battle between hell and earth. No, Spawn doesnt belong to hell, though he originates there, he finds no reason to reside with hell and the megalomaniacal armies of heaven. Confused? well in the world of Spawn comics, heaven n' hell is always in constant battle to reign supremacy in earth. Zera was ordered to eliminate Spawn who stood in the way. Story cut short, Zera was defeated by Spawn after she was gutted and beheaded. But being an immortal, Zera still lingers as wisps till she got a new body"

bought Zera when i was loitering around in Perth City, Australia. I guess its just one of those days where i have nothing better to do and i took a train down the mall and just buy whatever i fancy..anyhow, enjoy the pics.. :)